Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Starting to feel nauseated and keeping busy

I took Anna out on another 'figure out what else we need to pick up' for school trip. We said we were getting her ready for first grade since last year we talked about her first day of kindergarten. She had a good year btw and even learned how to count and say her abc's in German well enough to test out of three semesters at IU! Not too shabby. Anyway, while we were out thinking hard about what else we were forgetting (already thought of something), we talked about her schedule and the fact that she most likely will not be back in South Bend till Thanksgiving. Sigh. I am sure I shouldn't even be writing about this and I have been doing my best to shove these thoughts to the back of my mind. I hope to go down in October, perhaps my birthday weekend (Matthew's bday too) to see her and spend a little time together as her schedule allows. She is organizing her clothes so I can easily put her winter clothes in the car to take down to her then.

She is my daughter and really my best friend outside of the hubby. We think out loud together and reprimand each other together, and are silly together, serious, working etc. together. She has been a very good daughter to me and I will miss her. I know she has a lot of growing up to do too but is confidently forging ahead. I am certainly THANKFUL for the Internet and cell phones in this case and know that we will still talk.

In the meantime, we will continue to have a nice time together and I am keeping busy with preparing for our vacation and school and finishing up what she needs for the fall. I will try not to puke as this comes to mind.

There have been some looks of pity come Anna's direction but really I do not pity her. She is excited and ready to learn and work towards her goals. I don't think that at all means that she will not miss her family. I don't think she will miss any of us as much as she will miss her baby sister and little Fefan. I have observed her squeezing the stuffing out of them lately and holding them tight and long. Isn't it great that any young person her age would so value the tiniest brother and sister in her life. They will grow and change the most while she is away.

I need to proceed with the day. Off to keep busy!


Rev. Rick Stuckwisch said...

The Peace of the Lord be with you, Karin. You and your family are in my prayers as you approach and undergo this big transition. I readily empathize with all of the different emotions you here express; and, as your pastor and your friend, I share both your joy and your sadness, both of which stem from your love for the dear daughter God has given you. Christ be praised for all of the above, and grant you His mercy to rejoice in these good gifts of His.

Karin said...

Thanks Pastor. I appreciate it. Partying as much as we can in the meantime. :o)

Debbie Theiss said...

It really is a neat experience to see our "children" grow into maturity. I have observed a lot of this the past two years, especially in Zach. He really has grown a lot being here and practicing his vocations. I have been amazed at how both he and Bekah have gotten along with what life has thrown them so far. Anna is a mature young lady, and I suspect she will handle everything well. Praying for you as you turn over a new leaf in your season. {hugs}