Monday, May 21, 2007

I know what I want to say but can't say it

There are many times that I try to explain myself and I just can't seem to get my brain out of my head and make myself clear. There are times I say things just because it is sort of fun to talk about. There are times I do that and totally lose the person I am talking to. I am not sure this is common for everyone but it can cause me to get depressed. Then I so want to stop the conversation and say "Look, don't take it so seriously" like the old song 'Pack up your troubles and smile, smile, smile.' I think I just talk outloud or think outloud and then later wish I hadn't said anything. For anyone reading this it is not pointed at any particular conversation really but just an observation about myself. I do know that I am NOT good at expressing myself in theological/faith terms but that may be a paranoia of 'saying it wrong'. If someone else explains something theological or I read it I think "that is amazing! How do you do that" and then I remember that it is usually someone who is trained and called to do that so why does it surprise me. So for what it is worth, I am lamenting my inability to explain this thinking that goes on in my head - maybe even here it doesn't make sense. This is not really a 'poor me' but an observation.

3 comments:

Rev. Rick Stuckwisch said...

Actually, this makes perfect sense to me. It sounds like a good description of my own experience (pretty much every day of my life).

You're a better communicator than you give yourself credit for. And as far as I can tell, you have quite a good theological grasp of things. Just remember that faith is never sure of anything other than the Word of God.

Karin said...

Amen

Favorite Apron said...

I feel like this too Karin. I think we go thru phases where we have these frustrating theological conversations with a lot of people, then we tone ourselves down, and then we flare up again. At least that's true with Brad and I.

I find it helpful to keep in mind that everything points to Christ, and to remember a few key phrases. The catechism comes in real handy!