Tuesday, May 26, 2009

"In five years mom"

So says my third child about leaving the nest. Sigh....he was talking about something related to being grown up and going to college etc. Five years. Which means Erik is about at two years and why do I feel like they are all grown up and gone already or they are slipping through my fingers. I stared at Anna last night through Bible Study (yes, I was listening when my eyes were not drifting shut- not because of content.....). Three more months which is now less then that now. I spent some time staring at my handsome sons too. I am so mixed on my excitement for them and my fear of not seeing them again. I think I am too dependant on their existence in my home. Must be that love thing where they have been so much a part of my life for so long but not long enough. Sigh.


Rev. Rick Stuckwisch said...

Yep, I know exactly what you mean.

It's your love for them, and the significance of your vocational attachments to them; and then those good and positive things also get twisted up and distorted in connection with your sin, your doubts and fears and all the rest.

If it's any consolation, you have friends who can not only sympathize but empathize; and a pastor who's also "been there, done that" (and still payin' for the t-shirt, so to speak).

The Lord be with you, Karin. You have much to be proud of, in the best sort of way, in your children.

Debbie Theiss said...

It is bittersweet, Karin. On the one hand, I was sad to have the girls leave us, but when I see them now, and how happy they are, my sadness turns into joy. Every thing has its season. Right? :-)